I then realized there are so many things that people never talk about when your expecting. I call these the downside of being a mom, which I say lightly as even though its not all fun and games, its so worth it and I am enjoying being a mom. Its just true that its not all roses and fun. You don't just sit at home and play all day. Things take 2-3 times longer to do (lugging a baby in and out of the stores to get groceries and the mail mean its an afternoon event versus 30 minutes). A shower feels amazing when your partner is home so you aren't listening for the monitor or rushing.
People said you would be tired. They never talk about how you are now so forgetful because you are so sleep deprived you have learned to function somewhat on 2 hour intervals of sleep (which means you are never getting really seep sleep). You know you are a part of a conversation but your mindset gets off track more easily or you forget what you were going to say mid sentence (which never happened before being a mom). You no longer have just yourself to get organized for a trip and you don't really know hat to pack for the baby so you pack everything and still forget something. Or that some of your friends will stop talking to you or coming around because you no longer have anything in common.
Now the above aren't true for everyone and I am hopeful that should we have a second baby that things are easier the second time around as I know what to expect. I should also give the clause that I have a great support network that I sometimes need to put my pride aside and ask for help.